A shiny blue kettle makes tea for one
Rain patters on the attic window
Looking out across a night of lovers
The full moon stirs a sacred longing
Honour the mysteries of this life.
Everywhere, is a gateway
that will draw you in and bless you.
It pulls so much sweetness through this body
Such tender sadness
A white hot stream of grief
That carves out channels of fire
In places that nobody speaks of.
The scent of incense lingers on the air
And two candles flicker peacefully
Light and shadow dance on the walls
Of this great space waiting to be filled.
This morning my body was sick
So I lay down and slept
When I awoke
It was to a place of incredible disconnection
I sense life slipping out of reach
What realm is this
Where am I now?
Change has her own rhythm
We can not master time.
Life seems to say:
“This is what is happening now,
Who are you?
Will you accept or resist?”
Another world has fallen away
Just as a snake drops her skin
And in this new place
The silence is grey.
There is no ground
No body, no voice
Because the witness has no solidity
Everything is unfamiliar
There is no one left here for anything to refer to.
Whose eyes are these?
Something will continue.
I can not explain to anyone
That I do not know what is happening.
That I am so vast, I am lost inside my own self.
And so small I don’t even exist.
Sometimes I feel like everything I ever was
tries to hold on. But it is already gone.
Searching for reality, Everything melts away.
Nobody can silence
a voice seeking truth.
Even when thoroughly ashamed,
we stand up straight, saying:
“Here I am, wash all I am not away”
A young bird is so perfectly innocent
She does not stop singing
Until she finally finds her song.
Honesty continuously refines herself.
She can not be defined.
She can only keep moving
and keep letting go.
It does not matter how we feel.
If we use it well.
Take everything as a question, not an answer.
That’s where freedom lies.
We get shown the same thing thousands of different ways.
That is all there is,
everything points to That.
Chaos descends on all our days and nights
We hold on this tiny spark at the centre of it all.
“I am here” We say,
Who understands how painful it can be
to stand here naked.
It can be so humiliating to reveal
that the best you have to offer
Is nothing more than an illusion.
Who has felt the value of tears?
Who has reached that place
that, out of choicelessness,
Summons up the courage it takes to say
“Look these are my mistakes
I don’t even know how ignorant I am
but teach me, please
strip me bare.”
Nobody can teach
a heart to love
Nobody can say what love is.
In each being it arises
in a unique way
And each expression is a path
That leads unto itself.
Those who tasted truth
Or glimpsed it
Even for a fleeting moment
They become wild and uncontainable
They attempt to break down the construction
Of everything which obscures it.
Tonight I am alive
Light touches everything.
It is only my own self.
We wound our own self
All seeking the same Love
So blind to it all.
I can’t even speak.
I don’t know where I came from
or what creates these worlds.
From where does one find the integrity
to surrender, so unknowing, to life?
How do we keep on stepping
so clumsily amidst all this beauty?
What pulls us?
My prayer is this:
May love find her way
With grace, and wisdom
May she have full presence
And full strength
May she destroy wisely
In a way which heals
May she create space
where others find truth
May she wear a face
that reveals the presence of others
May she reflect clearly
May her humility
give birth to compassion
May her gentleness have genuine power
to allow others their strength
and honour the freedom to love.