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Tea with the Moon

 A shiny blue kettle makes tea for one
Rain patters on the attic window
Looking out across a night of  lovers
The full moon stirs a sacred longing

Honour the mysteries of this life.
Everywhere, is a gateway
that will draw you in and bless you.

It pulls so much sweetness through this body
Such tender sadness
A white hot stream of grief
That carves out channels of fire
In places that nobody speaks of.

The scent of incense lingers on the air
And two candles flicker peacefully
Light and shadow dance on the walls
Of this great space waiting to be filled.

This morning my body was sick
So I lay down and slept
When I awoke
It was to a place of incredible disconnection
I sense life slipping out of reach
What realm is this
Where am I now?

Change has her own rhythm
We can not master time.

Life seems to say:
“This is what is happening now,
and anyway,
Who are you?
Will you accept or resist?”

Another world has fallen away
Just as a snake drops her skin
And in this new place
The silence is grey.
There is no ground
No body, no voice
Because the witness has no solidity
Everything is unfamiliar
There is no one left here for anything to refer to.
Whose eyes are these?

Something will continue.

I can not explain to anyone
That I do not know what is happening.
That I am so vast, I am lost inside my own self.
And so small I don’t even exist.
Sometimes I feel like everything I ever was
tries to hold on. But it is already gone.

Searching for reality, Everything melts away.

Nobody can silence
a voice seeking truth.
Even when thoroughly ashamed,
we stand up straight, saying:
“Here I am, wash all I am not away”

A young bird is so perfectly innocent
She does not stop singing
Until she finally finds her song.

Honesty continuously refines herself.
She can not be defined.
She can only keep moving
and keep letting go.

It does not matter how we feel.
If we use it well.
Take everything as a question, not an answer.
That’s where freedom lies.
We get shown the same thing thousands of different ways.
That is all there is,
everything points to That.

Chaos descends on all our days and nights
We hold on this tiny spark at the centre of it all.
“I am here” We say,
“Please, continue.”

Who understands how painful it can be
to stand here naked.
It can be so humiliating to reveal
that the best you have to offer
Is nothing more than an illusion.
Who has felt the value of tears?

Who has reached that place
that, out of choicelessness,
Summons up the courage it takes to say
“Look these are my mistakes
I don’t even know how ignorant I am
but teach me, please
strip me bare.”

Nobody can teach
a heart to love
Nobody can say what love is.
In each being it arises
in a unique way
And each expression is a path
That leads unto itself.

Those who tasted truth
Or glimpsed it
Even for a fleeting moment
Go crazy
They become wild and uncontainable
They attempt to break down the construction
Of everything which obscures it.

Tonight I am alive
Light touches everything.
It is only my own self.
We wound our own self
All seeking the same Love

So blind to it all.
I can’t even speak.
I don’t know where I came from
or what creates these worlds.
From where does one find the integrity
to surrender, so unknowing, to life?
How do we keep on stepping
so clumsily amidst all this beauty?
What pulls us?

My prayer is this:

May love find her way
With grace, and wisdom
May she have full presence
And full strength

May she destroy wisely
In a way which heals
May she create space
where others find truth

May she wear a face
that reveals the presence of others
May she reflect clearly
undistorted

May her humility
give birth to compassion
May her gentleness have genuine power
to allow others their strength

and honour the freedom to love.

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Presence of Light

We all have Wounds
and we try to conceal them from Light;
We bandage them tightly
and say “Don’t touch me there!
Don’t even look –
It will hurt
too
much”

You can spend a whole life time
in fear
of being tender.
Don’t be afraid
of becoming undone.

The truth,
when perfectly revealed,
will release you fully
to heal
the deepest
source
of Longing.

What do you long for?

If you stop to listen
for even one moment,
You will feel
the Presence of Light
against every atom
of Being.

We can find a thousand reasons
to resist the Soul’s embrace

Secretly we know
that

Only this Love –
relentlessly seeking our softness;
flowing toward us
in wave after Luminous wave –
can dissolve all the Pain
we mistakenly held on to
in this long
lonely Dream.

We hide behind walls of grief
for we know
we will be lost
in the infinite of Loving
when we surrender
the need
to be separate.

It’s time to let go of our shadows;

The purest freedom comes
from allowing
Love

Don’t run away,
be opened by the sweetness;
abandon the self completely
to your burning Heart:

G-d
has been waiting there,
since the first spark of Life,
to immerse your whole Being
so tenderly
in Light

~

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Speak of Your Love

When I don’t feel you near me,
When you are not on fire
in the silence of my heart,

I feel
so lost.

I can’t even say one word
if it is not to speak of your Love.

(Or the longing for that)

I am here!
Please, open me,
Hold me, breathe me –
Don’t let go.

There is nowhere to be
without you.

But wait!

How many times must I forget?
Now I remember
how to announce my presence:

Stop right here
in the space of being;
Be perfectly still.

Listen from the centre:

Ah! I hear you
Everywhere.

You have been
so terribly patient

Everything is alive with your light.

~

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Be Perfectly Ashamed

The rain
that comes at dawn
is beautiful;
Don’t hold back
Run out beneath the open sky
and dance, dance!

Let your heart loose
Be wild and free.
Listen to the birds sing.
See their feathered breasts
tremble. So completely
they are giving.

You too can be naked
of every thing
that keeps you from
Being.

Stay awake all night if you
must. Let the longing pierce
you. Don’t run away, turn
to face it. Break open.

Feel the ecstasy rising.

The Friend said these troubles
were never intended
as ropes
that tie you to the world,
But as a ladder
that connects you
directly
to the purest source
of Love.

This is your truth,
that intimate connection.

Meet the darkness tenderly,
lose all hope;
Be perfectly ashamed. This
is when he Loves you most.
Let the Beloved touch you,
don’t hold back.

There is a deeper light;
It is coming, now.

~

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Long Time Coming

The moon is beautiful
and sometimes
a long time coming.

She is not always as close
or full as this night,
she draws my burning heart
to reflect the purest longing.

The light which has been hidden
will be revealed,
it’s spilling over, waiting.

Consume me with your truth;
Bless the weeping
face turned upwards:
The mistakes I have made,
may they be your becoming

Every moment that I forget you
or ask you to look away,
let it hurt me so deeply,
pain me even more than this.

Break me open, let there be no rest
until have emptied into you completely.

Show me where I did wrong,
don’t be kind.
Give me the courage
to make everything right;

I’ll be here waiting, watching,
listening for you all night.

The darkness is radiant,
pours my heart into the deepest places

Suspended in grace
I die unto the love once more
Dawn comes, lost in praying,
Keep me with you,
Keep me with you today.

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Nearer

G-d said

“My dear,

I have looked into your heart and read everything that is written there.

I must tell you that all I have seen has made me long to hold you closely

So come a little nearer,

 Please”

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Waiting

What you have really been waiting for
is not to be invited in
to the house where the lovers
sit blissfully drinking tea;

But to see your reflection
in the cup that G-D himself
has been gently stirring
all this long,
thirsty, time.
~

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Not Knowing

If you are breaking open
and there is no ground or walls,
nor person to say “Yes I am that”,
If there is no knowing nor faith
and no desire;

If you have discovered
that everything you believe in,
all that you touch, dissolves;
If nothing can be confirmed,

What do you do?

I stay still, feeling,
listening, quietly;

If the pain grows deeper – let it,
If the fear comes stronger – let it,

If disturbance comes to destroy
this entire world – let it!

What could I do
but stay in my heart?
Stay here, where
something is burning.

And whilst I wait between
unknowable and unknown,

Perhaps the life
that is warm and moving
will carry my understanding
deeper, to a place where

All this breaking will only have been
the tearing down of walls:
the walls of my being.

So if it hurts and feels like it’s the end,
maybe it’s only the beginning of beyond;
Because the walls are not me
and all I ever asked for was to be free:
Free of all that is not true,
Free to merge with infinity,
to meet G-d – Fully.

(It was a name we were given
for that which has no name.)

All that ever remains is this longing.

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Spiral Dance

The infinite spiral dance of thought
shouts and whispers, if we follow
draws us outward;
Paints a web of untold dreams
perpetuated by relentless desire,
Blinded by insatiable longing.

Transcend the attachment to outward attention,
dissolve into silence, remain unseen;
Turn back to the stillness from which you arise.
Never outside of this, but here
in the breath; In the warm beating heart.

Bathe in all-pervading consciousness,
that infinite hum of light;
The pulse of awareness

Oh sweet, Sweet untouched
Beloved,
Residing beyond intimacy,
Indivisible from time or space;

Sacred one – It is time to come Home.

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We are Sad Sometimes

We are sad sometimes
For there is sadness in us
It is a sweet smile
Or a silent tear
Falling

Calling

Hearts dancing

How vivid are these encounters!

Years of weeping have made us tender
Our souls brave and raw
They are amused by the sincerity of our
Imaginings

Laughing
Playing

Carried by ancient rivers
Deep longing
Powered by wings of sorrow

How mysteriously it has found us!

Liberated by the falling
Outside of ones self
We can become softer
And the world reveals itself as
Delightful

How marvellous it is to be alive!

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Seekers of Light

We long to send our spirits up – To soar above the sky
Yet our tiny hearts will tremble  – All the faster when we try

We would be steadfast warriors  – With intentions made of gold
Yet our human ways will stumble –  On the same mistakes of old
Invisible threads connect us  – In ways we don’t perceive
Yet we imagine we are separate  – And alone the ‘I’ must grieve

In darkness we find lightness  – As healing grows through pain
Then we see in one another –  The beauty and the shame
We carry deep within us  – The source of all that is
Yet we struggle in confusion  – Imperfect incomplete

Intelligence misleads us  – It feeds the ego mind
In the search for truth and wisdom  – We can’t know the things we find
Our questions lead us higher  – Then throw us to the ground
It isn’t ‘till the asker fades –  That nothing can be found

In the stillness of the night time  – By the language of the wild
We pass through the fear that bound us –  To reclaim the dreaming child
In dancing and in music  – And In the simple joy to be
In the quiet understanding –  That we share we can be free

We breathe light toward the centre –  As we ride upon the wave
To cry and laugh as love transforms us  – Humble gentle brave

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