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Stormy Seas

“The snake inside a bamboo cane…
can only go up or down.”

He was smiling at me

“Which way will you go?”

I know not of what you speak
but I will follow you into the Mystery
With the beating of my heart
By the light of our eyes
Through your touch
Show me the way up.
Lead me to G-d

Oh Friend, who leads who?
Here is my faith
Let us journey together.

Maybe I didn’t go anywhere.
Just wrapped around myself.
Constricted.

Sometimes my anger is a burning light.

A terrible, powerful force.
The oceans which feed it
are immense.

My rage gives way to Longing
Unseparated, we are free.

I never found a way to perfectly express
with the whole of my being
that one great Beauty I see everywhere

I am always falling.

And falling, praying.

Don’t forget me, don’t stop calling.

Nobody wants to be other than Love.
To be less than their purest self.
To be this not that.
Unfullfilled.

Sometimes my grief is unconsolable.

This is a poem for Him.
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A warrior turns to face his anger
He says “Come, come and dance”
Dance until we weep
Then grow your softness

He is not afraid
To be invincible
He moves like water.

There is space for everything inside him.
So he laughs and plays.

You have made great effort to be Master of your ship
I bow to your intention
Here, take the lamp which burns inside my heart
It can be lonely at sea.

Raise the humble flag of a warriors love
It can not be torn.
Cutting through illusion
Storms make way for freedom
Ride your winds
Sail free, untethered
to light a Way

Blessings on your course

Such skill takes time and practice
I am adrift

Full of cracks
The cracks of hesitation, self doubt and indecision
My bamboo is not strong enough.

My snake is all twisted up in knots.
Dearanged by lack of freedom

The depth and intensity of my rage
The raw force, unexpressed
If I could harness it, direct it with care,
Would equal yours. I know.

It is a force for healing.

You showed me where there is no place for fear
No place to hide
Stand up now and be seen
Before the face of death
“All of this is Love”

I had to break to fit that kind of love inside me.

If it were not for this exterior life,
and I dived down into the depths of me
and you into the depths of you

The demons and deities I could produce
From my own ancient energies
Would dance with yours well.
We could make a fine show together.

Of fire and wrath
and Love
of wisdom that cuts like a blazing knife

There are no prisoners here.

Then sit down laughing
side by side
Drink from the tea kettle
as old Friends.

Knowing we are nothing
Humility and compassion
We suffered long to learn
So now,
Light like air

With the taste of tears still on our lips
We know what sweetness is

Sweetness is owning our own Hell
and making Heavens garden there
where fruit and flowers grow,
where children sing

Sweetness is
offering your rage
on bended knees
Saying I Love you

When the clouds of this and that
Drift away
Birds on the wind
Flow like water

Everything returns to silence.

Let us make love one day
Unbound
Melt together in pools of warmth
Beneath the stars
of a million births and deaths

When I am finally naked
of all that is not
When you can move through me
Freely
Let my offer myself to you

Raise me up, raise you up.

Being not of this world
yet in it
I recognised a companion

Oh fool I
Showed myself to be less than worthy
That we do not walk together
That I stand not by your side.

Dive into your Ocean, Friend
Find me there,
meet me there,
Love me there.

Lose me here
in the Light of your loving.

I am deep enough to hold you.

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Be Unspeakable

This great love that comes upon you,
that wraps you, envelops you,
melts you so tenderly
in the indescribable embrace;
That breaks you open with a soft “Oh!”
of surprised loving;
That enters you utterly
with the most exquisite gentleness
you have ever perceived;

It is not yours –
neither of your own doing,
nor of your own effort:

It is a gift from beyond,
it is grace flowing –
it is the support of light itself.

Don’t take it for granted!

There’s a tiny voice, far too loud:
“I have been searching everywhere
whilst you were here always,

I will take you when I am ready –
You are all that I long for – please stay
whilst I step aside
to continue my dream
for just a little longer:

Your touch is – unspeakably divine
but you want me far too much,
or is it I who is wanting?

Either way, I will drown myself in you,
but  first, let me forget again –
so I may behave like one who has not
been kissed by the source of G-d –
for just another day, or week,
or perhaps a life or two:

I’m not yet ready to exchange
my freedom
for the infinity of unbound loving,
My shadows still need
a little space, to play.”

Don’t listen!

When this Love comes
drop everything
and say “yes, yes, YES!”

You must be ready
to throw yourself in completely –
to give up every thing you have
in an unstoppable flow of gratitude;
Be unspeakable –
really you have nothing to give,
all you can offer is so incredibly modest
in the ultimate face of this – Love.

It is the greatest mystery
why any being,
any small, lost, suffering being
(which is all that we are)
would reject the beloved;
Would reject truth, and life itself,
for a few more stolen moments
destructively engaged with the senses.

Oh, we hurt ourselves so
much, whilst G-d weeps.

Don’t take love for granted!
When grace comes,
the time is right –
the time is now.
Let it set your heart on fire
and don’t turn back.

When you recognise how small you are
as you try to ignore G-d –
When you see how long, how patiently
your own Soul has been waiting;
When you realise how relentlessly
this love has been poured upon you –
and know how much
you have been forgiven,
You will weep oceans of tears.

Bow down to this light, this love,
this absolute tenderness – in which
you have been so completely permeated –
accept the Soul’s embrace;
From this moment,
surrender to the infinite holding,
in every breath of spirit
be moved by Grace.

Whisper into the fullness,
“Here is my heart:
Take it,  Enter,
Now”

~

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G-d Weeps

G-d weeps
every time
you turn away from his Love
and – believing your self
to be so unspeakably
alone – set about
the Heart’s destruction
in an attempt
to still the pain.

Every being of Light
that waits so tenderly
by your wounded side,
grieves
when you doubt the Soul
for even one moment.

G-d never asked you
to find all
the broken pieces,
or to cover your open sores
with a temporary balm;
That would be far, far too much
for any child
to suffer.

All the tears of heaven
flow towards this world
with such pure Love
that the Grace of even one drop, falling
on an open Heart,
can heal a whole life time
of troubles.

There are
so many ways
to turn away –
but it hurts, always,
when you do.

Why do you run so
blindly
like a frightened child,
grasping at the world
to ease the senses?
It is not your burden
to calm this sorrow.

Quiet, now…
Enter in
to your stillness,
be it empty of words
or hope.

Come, there is one word:
Trust. Take it.
Offer your heart
to Light
Meet your truth
completely,
even when the Soul
is unseen.

Listen in that place where
Love waits
with the sweetest Embrace;
Light is waiting
to carry you
home –  in the Infinite
river
of Grace.

~

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Presence of Light

We all have Wounds
and we try to conceal them from Light;
We bandage them tightly
and say “Don’t touch me there!
Don’t even look –
It will hurt
too
much”

You can spend a whole life time
in fear
of being tender.
Don’t be afraid
of becoming undone.

The truth,
when perfectly revealed,
will release you fully
to heal
the deepest
source
of Longing.

What do you long for?

If you stop to listen
for even one moment,
You will feel
the Presence of Light
against every atom
of Being.

We can find a thousand reasons
to resist the Soul’s embrace

Secretly we know
that

Only this Love –
relentlessly seeking our softness;
flowing toward us
in wave after Luminous wave –
can dissolve all the Pain
we mistakenly held on to
in this long
lonely Dream.

We hide behind walls of grief
for we know
we will be lost
in the infinite of Loving
when we surrender
the need
to be separate.

It’s time to let go of our shadows;

The purest freedom comes
from allowing
Love

Don’t run away,
be opened by the sweetness;
abandon the self completely
to your burning Heart:

G-d
has been waiting there,
since the first spark of Life,
to immerse your whole Being
so tenderly
in Light

~

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Speak of Your Love

When I don’t feel you near me,
When you are not on fire
in the silence of my heart,

I feel
so lost.

I can’t even say one word
if it is not to speak of your Love.

(Or the longing for that)

I am here!
Please, open me,
Hold me, breathe me –
Don’t let go.

There is nowhere to be
without you.

But wait!

How many times must I forget?
Now I remember
how to announce my presence:

Stop right here
in the space of being;
Be perfectly still.

Listen from the centre:

Ah! I hear you
Everywhere.

You have been
so terribly patient

Everything is alive with your light.

~

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Be Perfectly Ashamed

The rain
that comes at dawn
is beautiful;
Don’t hold back
Run out beneath the open sky
and dance, dance!

Let your heart loose
Be wild and free.
Listen to the birds sing.
See their feathered breasts
tremble. So completely
they are giving.

You too can be naked
of every thing
that keeps you from
Being.

Stay awake all night if you
must. Let the longing pierce
you. Don’t run away, turn
to face it. Break open.

Feel the ecstasy rising.

The Friend said these troubles
were never intended
as ropes
that tie you to the world,
But as a ladder
that connects you
directly
to the purest source
of Love.

This is your truth,
that intimate connection.

Meet the darkness tenderly,
lose all hope;
Be perfectly ashamed. This
is when he Loves you most.
Let the Beloved touch you,
don’t hold back.

There is a deeper light;
It is coming, now.

~

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Fall in Deeply

Fall into your sadness, dear –
don’t hold back
I want you to know
It has an infinite capacity for loving.

There are a thousand reasons to be sad.
If they are yours, embrace them.
G-d never asked his children to be happy
always. You can love whilst weeping.

Here is the secret:
You don’t have to be perfect to love
perfectly. A broken heart is full of light
Sadness keeps the great fire burning.

Don’t be ashamed. Fall in deeply.
The great Loving that you are
wants to spill out quite brilliantly.
G-d will kiss you so sweetly if you let it.

~

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Fall into Your Love

Is there something wrong
with the truth of a child –
that we must teach her
how to be human? If she is wise
she will spend the rest of her life
trying to forget.
She will want to be G-d.

The purity I know,
the place where we come from,
does not go away. It’s here.
But i’m sometimes afraid to look
into the eyes of a child,
lest she should see doubt in me –
all the horror written there;

Lest she be infected with shame,
with the thoughts that come after
life happens. When we forget G-d.
Oh we become so disturbed.
Don’t change little one, keep your truth;
Fall into your love. Be as you are.

~

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Keep Me Foolish

Some people mock
those who pray;
They say “Only a fool
will call upon the name of G-d”

We are all children
don’t deny our innocence
Light can not be stolen

I don’t want to grow in the shadows.
So I turn to Love and say
“Keep me foolish. Please”

I can’t be brave.
You know that –
you made me this way.
It should really be you
on your knees,
begging forgiveness
for all the grief that caused.

I want you to make
the whole of me a prayer
So there isn’t a beginning
or an ending; a coming
or a going.
Not even one moment
that I leave your lips.

When people say G-d isn’t
I go deeper inside
I’ve been standing here naked
watching and listening
For all of time
and I never saw a place –
not even the smallest space
– that was empty.

Some people passing by
with their bundles of knowledge
Try to tell me
everything that IS isn’t:
that everything is not you.
I don’t want to be buried
beneath the weight of all that knowing

So I just smile
and say “Yes, Yes yes”
It doesn’t really matter –
after all, no one is listening
I never saw anyone
who is not G-d

One way or the other
we all play at being ignorant
It was made like that
So play how you will
– and be happy

But let me stay here
on your lips
I’ll do all the weeping
and the laughing
Blessing all the shadows
until the light comes home.

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Path to G-d

If you haven’t come to speak about love
then i don’t want to hear.
There is enough talk of shame,
of lost ones, fallen.
The G-d I know
never turned a soul away
who said one word: please.

I am through with courage
through with wisdom
through with strength and skill.
If there isn’t a place for everyone
I have already gone.

Forget about everything
but grace.
No flower needs to make an effort
to be beautiful.
There is a simple truth.
It isn’t learnt.

I’ve lost interest in everything
but love.
Say nothing. Don’t speak it.
Words make shadows.
Don’t even touch the path to G-d
It’s far too dangerous for lovers.
Stop.
Listen.
You don’t need to do anything
to be here.

Tell me about the Love
that is happening now.
Light is not a secret
I want to feel it inside you:
How there is no distance
between us at all.

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Long Time Coming

The moon is beautiful
and sometimes
a long time coming.

She is not always as close
or full as this night,
she draws my burning heart
to reflect the purest longing.

The light which has been hidden
will be revealed,
it’s spilling over, waiting.

Consume me with your truth;
Bless the weeping
face turned upwards:
The mistakes I have made,
may they be your becoming

Every moment that I forget you
or ask you to look away,
let it hurt me so deeply,
pain me even more than this.

Break me open, let there be no rest
until have emptied into you completely.

Show me where I did wrong,
don’t be kind.
Give me the courage
to make everything right;

I’ll be here waiting, watching,
listening for you all night.

The darkness is radiant,
pours my heart into the deepest places

Suspended in grace
I die unto the love once more
Dawn comes, lost in praying,
Keep me with you,
Keep me with you today.

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Oh, Heart!

I woke in the night
and there were tears,
so many tears, falling:
My heart wide open, weeping
for all those
who could not take your hand.

There were thirsty men in the desert –
travelled so far, searching
for their longing to be quenched;
You came to them with water
but they did not know you
and they could not drink.

I woke in the stillness,
it was such a sweet, soft night
and I was weeping.
I saw  so many thirsty men
praying, walking, searching –
oh, Heart, what will become of them?

~

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Nearer

G-d said

“My dear,

I have looked into your heart and read everything that is written there.

I must tell you that all I have seen has made me long to hold you closely

So come a little nearer,

 Please”

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Laugh

“When anyone tries to tell me
that the Beloved does not exist,
I laugh –
For it is like hearing the full moon say
(absolutely radiant)
that there is no sun, or light!”

~

 

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Waiting

What you have really been waiting for
is not to be invited in
to the house where the lovers
sit blissfully drinking tea;

But to see your reflection
in the cup that G-D himself
has been gently stirring
all this long,
thirsty, time.
~

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