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G-d Weeps

G-d weeps
every time
you turn away from his Love
and – believing your self
to be so unspeakably
alone – set about
the Heart’s destruction
in an attempt
to still the pain.

Every being of Light
that waits so tenderly
by your wounded side,
grieves
when you doubt the Soul
for even one moment.

G-d never asked you
to find all
the broken pieces,
or to cover your open sores
with a temporary balm;
That would be far, far too much
for any child
to suffer.

All the tears of heaven
flow towards this world
with such pure Love
that the Grace of even one drop, falling
on an open Heart,
can heal a whole life time
of troubles.

There are
so many ways
to turn away –
but it hurts, always,
when you do.

Why do you run so
blindly
like a frightened child,
grasping at the world
to ease the senses?
It is not your burden
to calm this sorrow.

Quiet, now…
Enter in
to your stillness,
be it empty of words
or hope.

Come, there is one word:
Trust. Take it.
Offer your heart
to Light
Meet your truth
completely,
even when the Soul
is unseen.

Listen in that place where
Love waits
with the sweetest Embrace;
Light is waiting
to carry you
home –  in the Infinite
river
of Grace.

~

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Only Reflections

When I was a child,
feeling the goodness
in me,
in you,
in all things,
I looked to you to confirm it

I poured all my love
into people who were
Incredibly lost. People
who never felt deeply
all hearts share a truth.

People hurt others
when they are hurting
They don’t understand
who they are.
People make boxes
then sit in them,
shouting loudly.

They are really afraid
of light. And sometimes
do terrible things.

You taught me
to be ashamed.
You said goodness
is something out there
something that we are not.
This is what you had learnt.
You said you know
that Love is a lie.

You confused me so much.
It’s okay. I accept you.
There is nothing to forgive
Everyone is doing their best

You made me look
at being a person.
Thank you. It broke me
again and again.
But something is still here.

When we get broken
it makes an opening, for light.
I understand now
how terribly lonely you must be.

It’s time to change direction
and pour all our love into truth,
I will not be ashamed
if it doesn’t come back.

There is no return of light –
only reflections.

When I give my love to truth
it’s flowing in to you, too.
You are truth.
You don’t need to know about it

One day, we will all be free.

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Fall into Your Love

Is there something wrong
with the truth of a child –
that we must teach her
how to be human? If she is wise
she will spend the rest of her life
trying to forget.
She will want to be G-d.

The purity I know,
the place where we come from,
does not go away. It’s here.
But i’m sometimes afraid to look
into the eyes of a child,
lest she should see doubt in me –
all the horror written there;

Lest she be infected with shame,
with the thoughts that come after
life happens. When we forget G-d.
Oh we become so disturbed.
Don’t change little one, keep your truth;
Fall into your love. Be as you are.

~

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Keep Me Foolish

Some people mock
those who pray;
They say “Only a fool
will call upon the name of G-d”

We are all children
don’t deny our innocence
Light can not be stolen

I don’t want to grow in the shadows.
So I turn to Love and say
“Keep me foolish. Please”

I can’t be brave.
You know that –
you made me this way.
It should really be you
on your knees,
begging forgiveness
for all the grief that caused.

I want you to make
the whole of me a prayer
So there isn’t a beginning
or an ending; a coming
or a going.
Not even one moment
that I leave your lips.

When people say G-d isn’t
I go deeper inside
I’ve been standing here naked
watching and listening
For all of time
and I never saw a place –
not even the smallest space
– that was empty.

Some people passing by
with their bundles of knowledge
Try to tell me
everything that IS isn’t:
that everything is not you.
I don’t want to be buried
beneath the weight of all that knowing

So I just smile
and say “Yes, Yes yes”
It doesn’t really matter –
after all, no one is listening
I never saw anyone
who is not G-d

One way or the other
we all play at being ignorant
It was made like that
So play how you will
– and be happy

But let me stay here
on your lips
I’ll do all the weeping
and the laughing
Blessing all the shadows
until the light comes home.

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Send every Angel You Know

I did not sleep this night
and now the sun is already rising high;
I will not sleep this day,
but empty my mind for you
and open my heart,
for we missed the moment
of true conversation
far too often –
I have been too busy
showing the world
what a terrible fool I can be
when I ignore your whispers.

There’s this little child in me you see,
having tantrums –
She’s wild with fear and pain
and the raging torrents of her tears
blind her;
She screams so loud – and fights
like a wild animal, cornered,
I do anything to silence her
and say “G-d look away for a moment”
(how could I say such things?)
and then how far I fall.

Only yesterday it seemed
I could touch your outstretched hand
with my trembling fingers –
Now I can hardly lift my head
I am so ashamed

Blossom is falling from the trees
and the birds have been singing to you
with the whole of their being
since dawn;
They never even had the smallest doubt –
that’s how innocent they are.

Please, help me to listen
more closely, more deeply,
I don’t want to be apart from you
for even one more moment;
There’s no where to go but inside you
Outside, you know, I’m lost.

This life is no place for
someone like me,
Your love alone keeps me alive;

If I can not live for you
Then I am already dying!
If I take even one step
without you in mind
all the light fades
and this body grows tired and weak

My spirit is kept alight
by your presence
burning in the heart;
I cannot be without your grace;
when I forget you, even for one breath,
I become a ghost, dim, crumbling into dust –

I’ve had enough, I will abandon myself here!
I’ve tortured myself for far too long
searching for ways to surrender –
I bow down completely –
You’ve seen all my mistakes!

Take every part of me,
Let me not move
unless it is with you in sight;
There isn’t time to fool about like this –
every breath I take away from your presence
is an agony in the heart

You gave me the greatest blessing
when you looked at me
for that  infinity of a fleeting glance
The smallest glimpse
was enough;
Now I spend every moment
longing
to see you again.

I don’t ask for anything,
but if I be lacking
in some quality needed to reach you,
then give me that.
This is my only prayer;
That I may honour you, fully,
for as long as it takes
for every Soul to come home.

Oh Sweet, sweet untouchable Beloved,
I give myself to you completely –
If should take even one step
which would make you weep,
send every angel you know
to stop me.

~

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Becoming Unknown

You broke me open a thousand times
and each time healed me
until the pain of becoming tender
was sweet as nectar.

You sent your breath like a hot desert wind
into my deepest unknown
and I entered into your cave.

You walked with me in my sleeping
and in my waking laughed at my surprise.

I am becoming softer
I am becoming stronger.

I am opening like a gentle river
Ancient flowing – Spirit moving
I breathe in – I breathe out
Ever drawing closer.

The journey continues
I a child among mysteries
Becoming unknown.

Heart beating to the rhythm of every cell
I am a living being.

You can move through me
I yield like clouds
but in my heart is a lion’s roar.

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