If you are breaking open
and there is no ground or walls,
nor person to say “Yes I am that”,
If there is no knowing nor faith
and no desire;
If you have discovered
that everything you believe in,
all that you touch, dissolves;
If nothing can be confirmed,
What do you do?
I stay still, feeling,
listening, quietly;
If the pain grows deeper – let it,
If the fear comes stronger – let it,
If disturbance comes to destroy
this entire world – let it!
What could I do
but stay in my heart?
Stay here, where
something is burning.
And whilst I wait between
unknowable and unknown,
Perhaps the life
that is warm and moving
will carry my understanding
deeper, to a place where
All this breaking will only have been
the tearing down of walls:
the walls of my being.
So if it hurts and feels like it’s the end,
maybe it’s only the beginning of beyond;
Because the walls are not me
and all I ever asked for was to be free:
Free of all that is not true,
Free to merge with infinity,
to meet G-d – Fully.
(It was a name we were given
for that which has no name.)
All that ever remains is this longing.
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