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Tea with the Moon

 A shiny blue kettle makes tea for one
Rain patters on the attic window
Looking out across a night of  lovers
The full moon stirs a sacred longing

Honour the mysteries of this life.
Everywhere, is a gateway
that will draw you in and bless you.

It pulls so much sweetness through this body
Such tender sadness
A white hot stream of grief
That carves out channels of fire
In places that nobody speaks of.

The scent of incense lingers on the air
And two candles flicker peacefully
Light and shadow dance on the walls
Of this great space waiting to be filled.

This morning my body was sick
So I lay down and slept
When I awoke
It was to a place of incredible disconnection
I sense life slipping out of reach
What realm is this
Where am I now?

Change has her own rhythm
We can not master time.

Life seems to say:
“This is what is happening now,
and anyway,
Who are you?
Will you accept or resist?”

Another world has fallen away
Just as a snake drops her skin
And in this new place
The silence is grey.
There is no ground
No body, no voice
Because the witness has no solidity
Everything is unfamiliar
There is no one left here for anything to refer to.
Whose eyes are these?

Something will continue.

I can not explain to anyone
That I do not know what is happening.
That I am so vast, I am lost inside my own self.
And so small I don’t even exist.
Sometimes I feel like everything I ever was
tries to hold on. But it is already gone.

Searching for reality, Everything melts away.

Nobody can silence
a voice seeking truth.
Even when thoroughly ashamed,
we stand up straight, saying:
“Here I am, wash all I am not away”

A young bird is so perfectly innocent
She does not stop singing
Until she finally finds her song.

Honesty continuously refines herself.
She can not be defined.
She can only keep moving
and keep letting go.

It does not matter how we feel.
If we use it well.
Take everything as a question, not an answer.
That’s where freedom lies.
We get shown the same thing thousands of different ways.
That is all there is,
everything points to That.

Chaos descends on all our days and nights
We hold on this tiny spark at the centre of it all.
“I am here” We say,
“Please, continue.”

Who understands how painful it can be
to stand here naked.
It can be so humiliating to reveal
that the best you have to offer
Is nothing more than an illusion.
Who has felt the value of tears?

Who has reached that place
that, out of choicelessness,
Summons up the courage it takes to say
“Look these are my mistakes
I don’t even know how ignorant I am
but teach me, please
strip me bare.”

Nobody can teach
a heart to love
Nobody can say what love is.
In each being it arises
in a unique way
And each expression is a path
That leads unto itself.

Those who tasted truth
Or glimpsed it
Even for a fleeting moment
Go crazy
They become wild and uncontainable
They attempt to break down the construction
Of everything which obscures it.

Tonight I am alive
Light touches everything.
It is only my own self.
We wound our own self
All seeking the same Love

So blind to it all.
I can’t even speak.
I don’t know where I came from
or what creates these worlds.
From where does one find the integrity
to surrender, so unknowing, to life?
How do we keep on stepping
so clumsily amidst all this beauty?
What pulls us?

My prayer is this:

May love find her way
With grace, and wisdom
May she have full presence
And full strength

May she destroy wisely
In a way which heals
May she create space
where others find truth

May she wear a face
that reveals the presence of others
May she reflect clearly
undistorted

May her humility
give birth to compassion
May her gentleness have genuine power
to allow others their strength

and honour the freedom to love.

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On a windy day

The wind rattles at the window
saying “Wake up!
Leave everything important behind,
come out and play!
Come, run with me
run free!
Let your most precious thoughts
fly out behind you –
I shall catch them and hang them on trees
to be blown away with the leaves one day.”

Now, leaves are falling.
and clouds never learnt the idea
of being solid.
We had to learn our troubles.
Come outside and breathe:
each breath is the only breath
in this instant, the first breath
never before, never again.
Everything is fresh and new:
don’t forget to be surprised!

A baby claps her hands and laughs with delight
at a thousand new things
every day.
Don’t grow old and bored of loving,
throw away the habit
of telling stories that dull the senses.
Be delighted
again and again.

Dance now because
everything you have
you will lose one day.
This is the best reason to dance!
Let life be like clouds
soft and magnificent
enjoying a wild transformation.

The birds are having a marvellous time
riding on the wind today.
Look at the sky!
Don’t tie yourself down
to anything which is no longer alive.
When the wind comes to rattle your windows
open them up and fly.
Be happy and free.

This is your moment:
incomprehensibly tremendous,
amazingly unexplored.
Don’t attempt to fit it
into a familiar dusty box.
The great mysteries have been waiting
far too long
for your presence
for the salute of your attention
for your joyful celebration.

Breathing formless into form,
form into formless,
be the crazy one
in love with nothing.
Be the one who, losing everything, can’t stop laughing,
who hangs their precious thoughts on trees
to be blown away like leaves.
Be that one who listens to the wind and smiles inexplicably,
blessed by every breath, saying
Thank you,
Thank you.
Thank you

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Stormy Seas

“The snake inside a bamboo cane…
can only go up or down.”

He was smiling at me

“Which way will you go?”

I know not of what you speak
but I will follow you into the Mystery
With the beating of my heart
By the light of our eyes
Through your touch
Show me the way up.
Lead me to G-d

Oh Friend, who leads who?
Here is my faith
Let us journey together.

Maybe I didn’t go anywhere.
Just wrapped around myself.
Constricted.

Sometimes my anger is a burning light.

A terrible, powerful force.
The oceans which feed it
are immense.

My rage gives way to Longing
Unseparated, we are free.

I never found a way to perfectly express
with the whole of my being
that one great Beauty I see everywhere

I am always falling.

And falling, praying.

Don’t forget me, don’t stop calling.

Nobody wants to be other than Love.
To be less than their purest self.
To be this not that.
Unfullfilled.

Sometimes my grief is unconsolable.

This is a poem for Him.
_________________

A warrior turns to face his anger
He says “Come, come and dance”
Dance until we weep
Then grow your softness

He is not afraid
To be invincible
He moves like water.

There is space for everything inside him.
So he laughs and plays.

You have made great effort to be Master of your ship
I bow to your intention
Here, take the lamp which burns inside my heart
It can be lonely at sea.

Raise the humble flag of a warriors love
It can not be torn.
Cutting through illusion
Storms make way for freedom
Ride your winds
Sail free, untethered
to light a Way

Blessings on your course

Such skill takes time and practice
I am adrift

Full of cracks
The cracks of hesitation, self doubt and indecision
My bamboo is not strong enough.

My snake is all twisted up in knots.
Dearanged by lack of freedom

The depth and intensity of my rage
The raw force, unexpressed
If I could harness it, direct it with care,
Would equal yours. I know.

It is a force for healing.

You showed me where there is no place for fear
No place to hide
Stand up now and be seen
Before the face of death
“All of this is Love”

I had to break to fit that kind of love inside me.

If it were not for this exterior life,
and I dived down into the depths of me
and you into the depths of you

The demons and deities I could produce
From my own ancient energies
Would dance with yours well.
We could make a fine show together.

Of fire and wrath
and Love
of wisdom that cuts like a blazing knife

There are no prisoners here.

Then sit down laughing
side by side
Drink from the tea kettle
as old Friends.

Knowing we are nothing
Humility and compassion
We suffered long to learn
So now,
Light like air

With the taste of tears still on our lips
We know what sweetness is

Sweetness is owning our own Hell
and making Heavens garden there
where fruit and flowers grow,
where children sing

Sweetness is
offering your rage
on bended knees
Saying I Love you

When the clouds of this and that
Drift away
Birds on the wind
Flow like water

Everything returns to silence.

Let us make love one day
Unbound
Melt together in pools of warmth
Beneath the stars
of a million births and deaths

When I am finally naked
of all that is not
When you can move through me
Freely
Let my offer myself to you

Raise me up, raise you up.

Being not of this world
yet in it
I recognised a companion

Oh fool I
Showed myself to be less than worthy
That we do not walk together
That I stand not by your side.

Dive into your Ocean, Friend
Find me there,
meet me there,
Love me there.

Lose me here
in the Light of your loving.

I am deep enough to hold you.

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Today

Good morning
somehow we are growing full
with all the silent joy
that is bubbling up like spring
Make a doorway
so it can flow free
and feed the heart
Say yes and yes and yes
to be alive
to be here
Today
this is what we have
You make a new path
with your light
Choose well
and love what you see
you leave behind a trail
Tomorrow, you see new
make new choice
You are not solid being
you, like water
free to flow
When the source begins it’s journey
to the ocean of Spirit
it does not know how it will arrive
so let go of knowing
and enjoy the way

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Clearing

There is a great fire burning in my heart
i am clearing my life of what was carried for so long
Here, now, not knowing where i shall go
everyday i grow lighter and lighter
When the wind blows i am lifted on it

the spirit sings and moves like the trees
i walk among the people and see their life
i am happy when i am not a person
with a heavy load
It seems so simple
when i am empty of myself
i am full with peace and joy
Everywhere i am here, nowhere to go
the less i have,
the more i am free.

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Dream

I dream of running free
wild beneath an open sky
Wind in hair
rain on skin
Of light
lying flesh to earth
beneath trees
of grass and leaves

I dream of being alive
to fill life completely
Of spirit unleashed
to move and breathe
Of being love
unworded
unbound

I dream of a spring
crystal waters
flowing from the core
of my beginning
and see how i have polluted it
such beauty,
all the light distorted

I pray that the great Love
will take me, not let me go.
Make me strong enough
to honour the crystal waters
Flow free
Blessing reality
Uncorrupted, awake
Light on Light.

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A song unsung.

This love is not a lie.

There is a sadness, which is not anger.
There is a pain, which is not selfishness.
There is a not knowing, which tries to see.
There is a bewilderment which tries but fails to understand.
There is a sustained effort so clumsily manifested.
There is a truth which can’t be heard, a song unsung.
There is a forgiveness which says “here let me take your pain, let me suffer it myself and turn it into your healing”
There is heart broken and broken and broken. It wants nothing for itself.
There is a compassion for all beings. It weeps and it weeps and it weeps and it weeps.

There is a person all gone wrong.
It doesn’t know where to turn.
It is doesn’t fear being seen.
But it weeps and it weeps and it weeps.

It prays “Break me open, make me softer, don’t let me resist. Let me hear you more deeply, let me reveal my self more clearly. Let me take right action. Let me love you more purely. Here is the jewel of my integrity. It is all I have. I offer it fully. Polish it, polish it, please reveal my courage.”

Forgive my mistakes. Were I perfection, I would only serve you in this world. I would give you more. Beyond this dream which I have executed so badly is another place… I never found a more beautiful place to dance than the place where the only dancing is the one in which everyone is wordlessly joined. We are the dance. If time was mine to give, I would give it all to you. But there is no mine. Time has no meaning, only that which takes place within. The only measure of every moment is how fully could you love what you saw.  All I can do is look, but I can not see. Remove the veil from love. I am the veil. There is only a space inside which a mystery is happening. Who are you, who am I? I don’t know.

When you speak, i hold a silent prayer, “Let me hear and accept these words clearly, without judgement or assumption or defence. Let the message travel direct to a place of understanding. Give me the humility, the openness, to hear. Remove me, remove me please, that truth may be known and acted upon.”

I believe there is a harmony, from where we all came to which we all belong. Any discord comes from the unreal. Really we are all in deep agreement. It is this deep agreement that I seek to uncover and from where I wish to live. It is where the real conversation takes place. It is already here. I weep because outside of that agreement is a desolate land where words are blown like dust and do not reach the heart. How can we meet within the real? How can I remove your suffering?

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Meet Life Here

The world has become a dream
the layers blurred and mingled.
When I don’t feel G-d
in every heart beat,
I am lost in the mist –
Belonging nowhere

I walk through this city
in a body made of space;
I can’t find any place
that I am – or am not.

The senses flow unrecognised,
erased of meaning;
My story floats unreachable,
beyond the stillness.
I think I have forgotten
how to be a person.

I move amongst people a stranger,
There’s a place from where the Soul comes –
to which we all return
I know us each so intimately,
so inseparably there – I have become
invisible.

Heart whispers:

“Look at the moon,
breathe in unseen
sounds of light – moving,
watch the wind,
feel rain on skin –

Let love find you.

There is a silence
in all things – meet life
here.

Turn to the world empty handed;
Listen to the beauty
everywhere – waiting
to be spoken.

Fill the deepest holding
of your heart – now
breathe out
all the blessings.”

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Each Companion

The night is so kind,
so full, so alive –
I will sit immersed in blessings
until dawn – reflecting;

There are days when
it is so clear –
the grace in others,
the soul spark in all:
the unclothed tenderness
makes this heart ache
with loving –

And the tears that come
seem to be made of light
falling in silent streams
from the beautiful overflowing

I wish I could keep a drop
or two, to remember
the gratitude which says “Yes”
to life’s unfolding and,
recognising each companion, asks
“How – oh how
may I serve you more sweetly?”

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Hide and Seek

You’ve fallen in Love with falling
in Love with me
again – Don’t do that!

Stay here,
where I can feel you,
with me – Always.

The sweetness of remembering
the slightest reflection
of my Embrace
is Nothing when compared to
the falling outside
of your Self in the infinite
Union

Fall in Love, if falling
in Love pleases you –
but know you can not Know me
Intimately until you give up spinning
so endlessly
in this game of hide and
Seek

There is a Space – you hold
the ancient Key
use it to come all the way home
Then throw it away!

Some Being will take it
to wear about their neck –
and fall in Love
Whilst we sing to them,
calling their Soul
in the great Silence we All
Belong to.

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Be Unspeakable

This great love that comes upon you,
that wraps you, envelops you,
melts you so tenderly
in the indescribable embrace;
That breaks you open with a soft “Oh!”
of surprised loving;
That enters you utterly
with the most exquisite gentleness
you have ever perceived;

It is not yours –
neither of your own doing,
nor of your own effort:

It is a gift from beyond,
it is grace flowing –
it is the support of light itself.

Don’t take it for granted!

There’s a tiny voice, far too loud:
“I have been searching everywhere
whilst you were here always,

I will take you when I am ready –
You are all that I long for – please stay
whilst I step aside
to continue my dream
for just a little longer:

Your touch is – unspeakably divine
but you want me far too much,
or is it I who is wanting?

Either way, I will drown myself in you,
but  first, let me forget again –
so I may behave like one who has not
been kissed by the source of G-d –
for just another day, or week,
or perhaps a life or two:

I’m not yet ready to exchange
my freedom
for the infinity of unbound loving,
My shadows still need
a little space, to play.”

Don’t listen!

When this Love comes
drop everything
and say “yes, yes, YES!”

You must be ready
to throw yourself in completely –
to give up every thing you have
in an unstoppable flow of gratitude;
Be unspeakable –
really you have nothing to give,
all you can offer is so incredibly modest
in the ultimate face of this – Love.

It is the greatest mystery
why any being,
any small, lost, suffering being
(which is all that we are)
would reject the beloved;
Would reject truth, and life itself,
for a few more stolen moments
destructively engaged with the senses.

Oh, we hurt ourselves so
much, whilst G-d weeps.

Don’t take love for granted!
When grace comes,
the time is right –
the time is now.
Let it set your heart on fire
and don’t turn back.

When you recognise how small you are
as you try to ignore G-d –
When you see how long, how patiently
your own Soul has been waiting;
When you realise how relentlessly
this love has been poured upon you –
and know how much
you have been forgiven,
You will weep oceans of tears.

Bow down to this light, this love,
this absolute tenderness – in which
you have been so completely permeated –
accept the Soul’s embrace;
From this moment,
surrender to the infinite holding,
in every breath of spirit
be moved by Grace.

Whisper into the fullness,
“Here is my heart:
Take it,  Enter,
Now”

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G-d Weeps

G-d weeps
every time
you turn away from his Love
and – believing your self
to be so unspeakably
alone – set about
the Heart’s destruction
in an attempt
to still the pain.

Every being of Light
that waits so tenderly
by your wounded side,
grieves
when you doubt the Soul
for even one moment.

G-d never asked you
to find all
the broken pieces,
or to cover your open sores
with a temporary balm;
That would be far, far too much
for any child
to suffer.

All the tears of heaven
flow towards this world
with such pure Love
that the Grace of even one drop, falling
on an open Heart,
can heal a whole life time
of troubles.

There are
so many ways
to turn away –
but it hurts, always,
when you do.

Why do you run so
blindly
like a frightened child,
grasping at the world
to ease the senses?
It is not your burden
to calm this sorrow.

Quiet, now…
Enter in
to your stillness,
be it empty of words
or hope.

Come, there is one word:
Trust. Take it.
Offer your heart
to Light
Meet your truth
completely,
even when the Soul
is unseen.

Listen in that place where
Love waits
with the sweetest Embrace;
Light is waiting
to carry you
home –  in the Infinite
river
of Grace.

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Presence of Light

We all have Wounds
and we try to conceal them from Light;
We bandage them tightly
and say “Don’t touch me there!
Don’t even look –
It will hurt
too
much”

You can spend a whole life time
in fear
of being tender.
Don’t be afraid
of becoming undone.

The truth,
when perfectly revealed,
will release you fully
to heal
the deepest
source
of Longing.

What do you long for?

If you stop to listen
for even one moment,
You will feel
the Presence of Light
against every atom
of Being.

We can find a thousand reasons
to resist the Soul’s embrace

Secretly we know
that

Only this Love –
relentlessly seeking our softness;
flowing toward us
in wave after Luminous wave –
can dissolve all the Pain
we mistakenly held on to
in this long
lonely Dream.

We hide behind walls of grief
for we know
we will be lost
in the infinite of Loving
when we surrender
the need
to be separate.

It’s time to let go of our shadows;

The purest freedom comes
from allowing
Love

Don’t run away,
be opened by the sweetness;
abandon the self completely
to your burning Heart:

G-d
has been waiting there,
since the first spark of Life,
to immerse your whole Being
so tenderly
in Light

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Speak of Your Love

When I don’t feel you near me,
When you are not on fire
in the silence of my heart,

I feel
so lost.

I can’t even say one word
if it is not to speak of your Love.

(Or the longing for that)

I am here!
Please, open me,
Hold me, breathe me –
Don’t let go.

There is nowhere to be
without you.

But wait!

How many times must I forget?
Now I remember
how to announce my presence:

Stop right here
in the space of being;
Be perfectly still.

Listen from the centre:

Ah! I hear you
Everywhere.

You have been
so terribly patient

Everything is alive with your light.

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Be Perfectly Ashamed

The rain
that comes at dawn
is beautiful;
Don’t hold back
Run out beneath the open sky
and dance, dance!

Let your heart loose
Be wild and free.
Listen to the birds sing.
See their feathered breasts
tremble. So completely
they are giving.

You too can be naked
of every thing
that keeps you from
Being.

Stay awake all night if you
must. Let the longing pierce
you. Don’t run away, turn
to face it. Break open.

Feel the ecstasy rising.

The Friend said these troubles
were never intended
as ropes
that tie you to the world,
But as a ladder
that connects you
directly
to the purest source
of Love.

This is your truth,
that intimate connection.

Meet the darkness tenderly,
lose all hope;
Be perfectly ashamed. This
is when he Loves you most.
Let the Beloved touch you,
don’t hold back.

There is a deeper light;
It is coming, now.

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